borderline between what and what?! (ruthlyn) wrote in shewasthesky,
borderline between what and what?!

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hey dude.
my name is Ruthlyn. as if that name doesn't already sound loserish.
i used to be in a group of friends called The Hobbits.
and. . .we used to be really close.
now they are even closer.
but without me.
in fact,they don't even act like I exist anymore.
they're all i've ever had. and now I feel like i don't even know them anymore.
with each day, i'm getting squeezed further and further out of te group.
everyone hates me.
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this is me and my ex boyfriend casey.
i'm in love with him. but he's too embaressed to talk to me in front of his friends, yet his FRIENDS think i'm semi-cool and will talk to me when no one else is around. (that's me in the picture, by the way)
we're fuck buddies. kind of. we fuck when he feels like it.
I try to refuse. on a day when he's being an asshole.
but he lures me into his trap of seduction. and I'm carried away. until he orgasms. . .
and then he just walks away. not a goodbye or anything.
I am simply a blowup doll to him.
I keep running back to him, 'cause i'm weak and insecure.
I hate him.
But I need him.
aren't I a pathetic fuck?
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No, you're not pathetic.

But you really shouldn't let him do that to you. I mean...seriously - you're very pretty and I know you can find someone better than him (and cuter.) =p

And plus, what kind of friends are they if they only talk to you when no one else is around? seriousleeeee, you can do so much better with different people. He's an ass. Be strong, don't be a doormat. Tell him to go fuck himself next time he tries to seduce you. Just think of what he's done. And then don't let him.


I hope everything goes well for you. And I hope you can find a better group.

i've driven him off before-
I wait 'til he gets completely naked, and then I run away with his boxers if I can snatch them- or the nearest article of clothing. It pisses him the fuck off.
i've always been told that I could do better. . .but yanno. it's very hard in a small town like this. Casey is the school secretary's son!

yeah. they aren't my real friends anymore. things just aren't the way they used to be. I'm completely independent from them now. But it's tough- having nobody but a fuck buddy.


December 1 2003, 20:21:46 UTC 13 years ago

Hi, i don't have a live journal account. Do you still have your code that you can send to a friend? If not do you think you could send it to me so I have have free live journal too? I don't have enough money to buy an account. Thank you very much! Just e-mail me and let me know if you can or not, my e-mail is thanks! BBubye!

You're very pretty.
You don't deserve what he does to you, you're better than that. Tell him that you're better than that. Tell him you don't want that anymore. Find someone who's better for you, believe me, you'll forget all about that fuck and regain a lot of self confidence.
PS: Your name is very pretty too.
er. . .this is really old and outdated. I have a new life, a new look, and a great boyfriend of 6 months.

I go to boarding school now, which is 346 miles away from that hell hole I was in. The guy in the picture has moved on, has a new girl. And I have a new boyfriend who loves me very much. But thanks!
Well it's rad to see you're doing better all the same.